Lonely

"We haven't spoken to anyone else for thousands of years, so we started talking to ourselves."

That is how I felt today as I wondered around the house wondering what to do. Lonely and bored. I have several sewing projects I would like to finish but Collin wants to "help mama," and I don't want a sewing machine or an iron landing on his head. While it is hot, I don't like to leave the house because I end up going to JoAnn's or the mall or something and spend money that should not be spent.....so I am grounded. Collin doesn't let me read cause he wants to eat the book. I could pick up the house but what is the point if it is messy within the half hour? Not ready to start school yet, I just can't ditch Collin at a sitter yet. Can't play video games, in fear of baby electricuting himself. I am tempted to decorate for halloween a month early....that would give me something to do. ( I don't think Joe would appreciate that) Please weather cool off so Baby and I can go out to play!!!!

I offered to watch Rhaynnon for Helena this week. Hopefully this will happen and she and Will can go have a night on the town before baby comes......or at least sleep. If Rhayn comes over we will do Halloween crafts!!! Fun Fun. Collin isn't quite big enough to do things like that with mama. Collin loves Rhayn, she runs around the apartment and he chases after her with squeeling delight. Collin such a social bug and loves people that are small like him.

Recently I haven't been able to find my fat gatoman, Conner. Found out is new hiding spot is in Collin's bedroom, right up against baby's playpen. It's like he started watching over the baby for me. He is mostly in there when Collin is asleep, just purring away. I didn't think the kitty liked Collin, especially when the baby runs and tackles the cat to the floor. But I guess there is a connection there finally. It's very sweet. Kitty even lets Collin pet him and shows a face of appreciation.

Service, I want to do service. There's gotta be something I can do with my time. I am an able body. Maybe I should apply to work at the arena this month at the state fair grounds to help the Katrina victims. Maybe there is something fun I could do for the kids there to cheer them up. Like balloon animals maybe.....I don't know. I just imagine these sweet little 5 year olds sitting in a big building they don't know, not a lot to eat, probably wishing they could go somewhere to play or have something to play with. Sad. I think I will check that website out next.............