FAIL

I have been applying for a job for the last year and some change.  In the last couple of weeks I finally got some calls.  So far I have had three interviews and one more to go next Wednesday.  I have been denied a job from two of my interviews in the last week. Talk about a blow to me self esteem.  By this point I am a little more frustrated with the Coolidge School District beyond all belief.  I have slaved for them for about four years now and volunteered countless hours.  I am tired of these people and I feel I will never get my chance.  If I do not get a real teaching job for next year, my license will die and I will have to retake the test of crappy doom again.  What is the point?  Why did I get this crappy degree?  How can I really help students if I can never establish relationships with them?  What am I doing wrong in these interviews?.......I just want to hide from the world and give up.  Somehow I need to get perky again for this next interview but I really just....don't feel like I care any more.